Today is gonna be a very "holy" post:))
Last night i dreamt of judgment day again.
The first time i dreamt of judgment day, i was outside with my brother. the sky started to turn really really scary. it was like the death angel was coming, jus like from prince of Egypt.
I turned to my brother and asked," kor, is.. today the day?"
And he replied,"yes, its judgment day"
And the thunder striked.
i was really scared.
& i woke up.
Last night i dreamt of judgment day again. yeah:)
I dreamt that i lived in this bigger house. I was with my family. The phone rang, i picked up the call. It was my aunt.
She said, "look out the window.." she said a few other things, but i cant really rmbr, i looked out e window, then i said "i know" and i put down the phone.
What i saw outside the window, was this huge black tornado. and the sky was dark and cloudy and scary. i went to my family, and they confirmed that it was judgment day. i thought to myself, "am i ready? am i really ready?" it felt so real:)
in my dream, i was crying out to God. i really felt that it was my time, as the black tornado headed towards us. It came closer, and closer, and closer. Just as i knew, i was gg to die, i woke up.
freaky huh? yeah. i think these dreams really help to confirm with myself. am i ready? this question is really important.
Today in the morning. i was jus enjoying myself. i told my self i would study later. and the later, became later and later and even later. i was watching tv. in the afternoon, i started to have this pain. i ignored it. thot it would go away. but it didnt. it was really really painful. it got more painful each second. i shut my eyes. hoping the pain would jus go away. i held onto my cupboard. it was unbearable. it lasted very long.
i didnt shout out. but i was screaming in my mind. "Help me LORD, help ME!.. take away the pain," & the pain stopped.
i got up. my legs were weak. my body had lost its strength. I looked at myself at the mirror. i looked like i was drenched in the rain. i was pespiring like mad. my whole body was literally drenched with sweat.
i thank God. yes i do.
and then i thought to myself, that, that huge amount of pain i felt... i dont think it is 1000times less painful than Hell. HELL.. is much much much worst.
& the pain i felt, was much much much more painful, than my appendicitis , Tonsillitis, the high fever that i had for 2 weeks, when i fell down the stairs while riding the bike, and when e bike fell on me, and the caning that i had from my dad:) thinking abt it, ive really nvr felt that mmuch pain in my life. tho ive only lived for 14 years! haha.
i Love God. and i know God, he loves me too:))